My brother ODed again. My mom tried to wake him and couldn't, so she got my nephew R awake and called the paramedics. D, my brother, is back in the hospital again, and again, R is staying with me. I told my brother before that if he did this again, I was going to kill him. Now I have to figure out how.

The paramedics told my mom in front of R that they thought it was another drug overdose, so now R knows about it. He's livid. And yet, after we talked about it, he said he really doesn't want to go back to his mother, either. He asked, "is my dad going to jail?" He's not; not that I don't wish he would. Maybe that would teach him. Not that it ever has, before. But I told R no. The boys both helped me go through D's room for drugs. This time we couldn't find the methadone that my brother said he took. The boys found a marijuana stash, though. They were all keen to watch me flush it down the toilet until they discovered my brother's porn stash *facepalm*.

I'm so angry I can't even form a coherent sentence. I'm signing off.

Title: Protective Heart
Author: lilyseyes
Characters: Severus Snape/Harry Potter
Challenge: severus_sighs: canon!Severus – the one that lives in my (and Harry's) heart
Rating: PG
Length: 338
Warnings: *AU, EWE, Mpreg, and fluff*
Summary: Severus is protective of those he cares for.
Disclaimer: JKR owns the Potterverse – I just play in it. No money is made from these amateur works.
Beta: The wonderful the_minx_17 ~ Thanks, darling!

Protective Heart

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Title: Sweet Kisses
Rating : NC-17
Author: lilyseyes
Word Count: 100
For:angela_snape who guessed which fall_fantasia story I'd written! The word prompt was 'bond' ~
Warnings: * Implied forced-bonding*
Disclaimer: JKR owns the Potterverse – I just play in it. No money is made from these amateur works.
Summary: The morning after At Last, A Kiss.
Thanks to alisanne for the once over! *smishes you*

Sweet Kisses

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Title: Malfoy Mistletoe
Author: alisanne
Rating: PG
Pairing: Lucius Malfoy/Hermione Granger, Severus Snape/Harry Potter/Draco Malfoy
Summary: A Malfoy always has a plan.
Word Count: 520
Genre: Humor, romance
Warnings: Potential threesome.
A/N: Written for for, who correctly guessed which snarry_ldws story was mine. Her request was for Lumione, prompt: Mistletoe.
Beta: sevfan
Disclaimer: The characters contained herein are not mine. No money is being made from this fiction, which is presented for entertainment purposes only.

Malfoy Mistletoe

Title: Malfoy Mistletoe
Author: alisanne
Rating: PG
Pairing: Lucius Malfoy/Hermione Granger, Severus Snape/Harry Potter/Draco Malfoy
Summary: A Malfoy always has a plan.
Word Count: 520
Genre: Humor, romance
Warnings: Potential threesome.
A/N: Written for for, who correctly guessed which snarry_ldws story was mine. Her request was for Lumione, prompt: Mistletoe.
Beta: sevfan
Disclaimer: The characters contained herein are not mine. No money is being made from this fiction, which is presented for entertainment purposes only.

( Malfoy Mistletoe )

Anyone see the "remake" of "The Prisoner?" They should have skipped borrowing a few decorations from The Prisoner like the title and The Village and just admitted they were making a not terribly original sci fi movie that had nothing to do with a classic bit of mid-century television. I figured it out early on and was mostly reading a rather dull history book with a clever title, "The Fabulous History of the Dismal Swamp Company."

The REAL Prisoner had charm, menace, paranoia, complexity, and was a statement of its time. I love it. This show was dull and predictable, even with names instead of numbers.

Watched SGU again, mostly because it was on and I like the nerd. I hate the episodes where we go back to earth for some soap opera and sex. This was primarily one of those. I don't know what the producers were thinking but it obviously wasn't "maybe we should make some good sci fi television about people isolated a million light years from earth." "Sanctuary" wasn't a winner either. Yeah, you killed off a primary character. Sure you did. Uh-huh. Pull the other one.

I did enjoy the almost final episode (sob!) of "Monk." The former former former police lieutenant. We knew he couldn't handle being back on the force after all those years on his own. And we knew Natalie would hate her new boss. So it wasn't full of suspense or surprise but just Monk being Monk. And Stottlemeyer being Stottlemeyer.

Urf. I am in writing lockdown until smutty_claus is done, because *draws hearts around story* but also *stabs it with a fork* a;slkjdfs.

But! Had to reappear for a moment to point out that the first-ever Harry/Scorpius Last Drabble Writer Standing competition at harryscorp100 just started. Yes, I have a soft spot for Harry/Scorpius, although no, I'm not in this competition. Just an interested observer. I only recently figured out a.) what LDWS things are, and b.) how they work, so now I want everyone to do them. :)

So, there are 15 writers in it, and each week they get a prompt, and then they write a drabble (defined here as under 500 words or so, I think or, in any case, not 100 on the dot), send it in, and they are all posted anonymously mid-week. Then readers vote for their favourite, reveals happen on Sunday, and a new weekly round begins, with one less person. Fifteen weeks later, we have a winner. Fun, yes?

Maybe I'm just addicted to reality TV shows wherein voting for favourites occurs? Hm.

Anyway, I point out this week's Week One drabbles because they are all super good. The first prompt was 'Age Disparity,' so all entries have something to do with the age difference. Scorpius is underage in some but not in others, so read the warnings and go with whatever floats your boat. I had a great time over coffee the other day reading through them and trying to decide on a favourite. No, I'm not always in favour of competitive stuff in fandom, and yeah, it sucks that someone has to be eliminated every week, but hopefully all the participants are okay with that and know not to take it personally. Anyway, if it appeals to you, go have a read through over there and vote!

In other news, I just read through a super awesome story for snupin_santa this morning that made me fall in love with Snupin all over again. Swoon!

*runs back to smutty_claus* Hope all your holiday fest stuff is in and you lot are having a relaxing weekend!

Title Rug Burns
Word Count 100
Rating R
A/N written for alisanne, who correctly guessed my entry into fall_fantasia

Rug Burns

It's me, doing things and having culture and stuff!
that is the entrance to Jones Hall from the underground parking garage that spans the underbelly of the entire Theater District. Cool art, for an underground lair. :D

Brahms was excellent. Mahler was odd. It was a great night.

Here's to a Happy Ending by verbalavalanche
J2 AU, NC-17
Graduation day. You get to hear all kinds of shit being passed around in the crowd.
Because I can't resist highschool AU fic and schmoopy hot sex is what fanfic is all about...
~ short-ish


In Restless Dreams I Walked Alone by roque_clasique
SPN, Gen, PG
Dean's mouth, and what it can't do. Just a little insight into Dean's character. This could easily be canon. It fits and it *feels* like it. Angsty and painful, a slightly broken Dean may just be the most hauntingly beautiful thing ever. Stories like this certainly make it seem that way.
~ short-ish

From soupytwist:

I have been thinking about this topic lately, so I would like to hear if you have any Thortz on ambitions - if you have any, what they might be, how you go about achieving them if so. :)

I'm a little weird with ambitions, because in many ways 'ambition' to me is linked to a lot of bad behaviour, politically motivated actions and relationships and all the stuff I dislike in the workplace. It's stepping over people and on people and being fake. Someone who is 'ambitious' is someone I probably don't like. And I actually know it's not true, Allegra and Dylan have the ambition of being published authors, Lucy an illustrator, another colleague a musician - these are ambitions I wholeheartedly approve of and support.

However, business ambitions aside, having things to aim for is, I think, a fairly necessary part of life. Or at least of mine. If I thought I was going to continue on exactly as I am now for the rest of my life that would be horrendous. Because for me at least growing and stretching myself is very very important, to improve myself in whatever way I can. Because I'm never going to be perfect but I can get better and be a better person. And also I like challenges (I curse 'em, but I like 'em!) and I like using my brain and learning and knowing things.

That's a bit vague isn't it?!

Do I have specific ambitions? No. But I have some waffley ones!

• To raise a happy daughter. Especially given the issues that both Henry and I come with with mental health and intelligence and social (in)ability. I know she will face her own issues and problems because she's human and all people do but I want to be someone who she knows she can come to for support and who she trusts. So that whatever is going on with her she knows she can come to me and I won't condemn her.


• To challenge myself. At the moment I don't have many chances to step outside my comfort zone, but when the opportunities arise I try to remember to take that step. I think it's important to me. I spent a very large amount of my life hiding in my own head and not interacting with people (do you know that I am fascinated with mutism, especially elective mutism? It's something which ... when I find myself thinking of the attraction of not having to speak I know to take my brain and mental health in hand), for a long time the world inside my head was more real than the outside world. Now I balance between the two and every new achievement in the outside world I feel expands and strengthens me. I grow when I do new things.


• To have a job which challenges me and which I enjoy. (OK, this one's been harder the last few months but as I said to my parents today 'there's a light at the end of the tunnel, it may be a train, we don't know right now, but there's a light.') Ideally I want a job where what I do helps people. (Actually in my current post I do help people, kind of, but something a little more direct.) At the same time, while I'm good at customer service (the peril of being someone who's bad at reading people and wants to please people, the life skills transfer over into work skills too!) I'm also good at systems and processes. I don't know the name of what it is I want to do, and I'm not sure how to get there, but whatever it is it involves problem solving and troubleshooting systems to make them work for the people who use them and the customer. And helping people. Recently I've been most interesting in researching posts in the charity sector but without many specific skills or qualifications it's a little tricky. (Living in the small of the back of nowhere doesn't help either.)

I think all of the above add up to - my ambition is 'to be a better person', better in terms of being good, better in terms of being effective, better in terms of ... being a person! Just better.

(PS soupytwist - That probably was absolutely nothing like you were expecting - sorry!)

The Mr and I have been low carb for a month now. I have lost 12 lbs.

All I want right now is to whip up a batch of blueberry muffins. Warm, sweet, crumbly blueberry goodness, just begging to be cut open and slathered in butter. I found this fantastic-looking recipe, and it looks like it would be perfect and moist and just exactly what I'm craving.

Blueberry muffins don't have carbs, right?

We are starting this years InsaneJournal holiday sale. From now until the end of the day Friday, November 27 we are going to be holding a sale on Self-Committed[paid] accounts and Extra Userpics.

The prices are be as follows

Self-Committed[paid]
1 Month -> $5
6 Month -> $15 $10
12 Month -> $25 $18

Extra Userpicx
6 Month -> $10 $5
12 Month -> $20 $15

Then on Friday November 27th from 8am until 4pm (Eastern US time) we will be running a very special sale on Permanently Insane accounts.

Adulterous
That forbidden relationship.
Warnings: Implications that the relationship that should not be occuring.
Rating: [PG](PG)
Word Count: 113
AN: In all honesty this could be about any relationship, I just wanting to give it a naughty feel.

( ...I've found my home in the twitch of your lips... )

And because I never posted to my personal journal, here's my Daily_Deviant fic from September!

Title: "Full"
Pairing: Remus/Sirius
Rating: NC-17
Warnings: Enemas, much swearing and insulting of vicars
Summary: “Because I want to,” Remus informed him in a low pitch that sent gooseflesh rippling up Sirius' spine. “Because I want to see just how much you can fucking take before you start begging me to stop. Because I want you to feel just what it would be like to have every inch of your arse straining and stretched until it's indistinguishable from your intestines and all you know and all you are is full.”
Author's notes: I think I need to change my username to "nooneelse" so when these particular themes come up everyone will know that "nooneelse" will right them. :P Written for iJ's alisanne after I promised her something fluffy in the wake of July's necro fic!

Fake cut to Daily_Deviant!

"Full"

November's Daily_Deviant fic... I wrote the alternate pairing this month. For some reason no one wants to write Morfin Gaunt. :P

Title: "Alternatives"
Characters: Morfin Gaunt/Quirrell, Voldemort/Quirrell
Rating: NC-17
Warnings: Non-con, Morfin Gaunt, Squickiness, slight crackiness? (Did you see the pairings?) castrati
Word Count: 1520
Summary: Quirrell lays in his bed at night, fidgeting. He used to sleep well, find comfort on his back in the softness of down blankets and the firmness of a good pillow and equally supportive mattress. But now he lays awake for hours, unable to deal with his own bony elbow poking into the side he has to lay on or to adjust to the soft pillow he must use now.
Author's notes: I'm sorry. Where was I supposed to go with this pairing? I mean, really? I think writing Morfin Gaunt in a fluffy romance would be far more terrifying than having him in a darker fic. Right? Right? :P

Fake Cut to Daily_Deviant!

"Alternatives"

Title: Reminder
Author: alisanne
Character(s): Severus Snape, Harry Potter
Pairing: Severus Snape/Harry Potter
Rating: PG
Warning(s): Innuendo
Challenge(s): Written for slytherins100's prompt #97: Fluke
Word count: 100
Author's notes: Yay for fluff week!
Beta: sevfan
Disclaimer: The characters contained herein are not mine. No money is being made from this fiction, which is presented for entertainment purposes only.

Reminder

Title: Reminder
Author: alisanne
Character(s): Severus Snape, Harry Potter
Pairing: Severus Snape/Harry Potter
Rating: PG
Warning(s): Innuendo
Challenge(s): Written for slytherins100's prompt #97: Fluke
Word count: 100
Author's notes: Yay for fluff week!
Beta: sevfan
Disclaimer: The characters contained herein are not mine. No money is being made from this fiction, which is presented for entertainment purposes only.

( Reminder )

Mostly greens this time: collards, something that's either chard or beet greens, some greens that I can't identify but are clearly for cooking, green cabbage, a small head of broccoli, and cherry tomatoes. Still have last week's collards and beets, too. So - I found a recipe for beans and greens, cooked white beans w/ the greens then cooked in them, with garlic and olive oil. Should be okay and seems easy, which is a plus. Also going to make herb-baked chicken breasts and Russian potato soup, along with cooked radishes (SO is dubious, but willing to try) and cooked beets for me.

We're having Thanksgiving at our neighbors' (J & C), so I'm not responsible for the turkey, yay! SO is supposed to go over later today and find out what they'd like us to bring; he's already volunteered to bring the butternut squash and apple dish, but probably I'll make at least a couple of other things also. Thus I will not do the grocery shopping until after that's been determined. Sometime this week or maybe next weekend, I plan to make cranberry-nut bread for local gift-giving, too.

In the meantime, back to work on the pathfinder. The library catalog was being uncooperative last night; here's hoping it's working right this morning.

Say, I was just chatting with my friend from Germany, and she has never heard of the so-called "End of the World" that has been predicted to happen on December 21, 2012.

Have any of you heard about it?

If you have, what's your thoughts on it?

If you haven't there's a few websites about it.

Here's one called, funny enough, December 21, 2012. *g*